Rememberinces of an Idiot

I've been rather reluctant to post on here lately. Mostly cause I don't want to come off as a cad on the events of the last couple of weeks.
It's been a weird couple of weeks. I'm kinda glad they happened, cause they needed to, yet at the same time I wish some things had gone drasticly different.

Ohkay, where was I last time?
Oh yeah.
I'm a big fat idiot...
That's right.

Please no one take offense to these words. Hopefully I will put them in the right context, but one can never tell.

So I get back to EC and the first thing I do is run to the Hizous's shower.
I swear that no other state has heard of a proper shower. Bathing in a tub is fine and proper when I wish to relax, but to feel clean I need a shower.
I rolled in too late to head out to the bars, but knowing the people I did I knew that someone was drinking something somewhere and was pleased to find out that the Jacksons were having their going away party.
And after a few drinks the world was a good place again. I got to say goodbye to my friends before they left on their awesome adventure that they are even now having (and having fun too, for the most part, it seems).

The next day promised a lot of fun as well (and it was for the most part). Kate, Nik, Kate's friend Mandy, and I were to float down the river and then Nik was going to make us a fantastic meal. And everyone would have a lot of fun.

That's the way it was supposed to go. And for the most part that's the way it went. We had a blast floating down the river (even though I got cut myself on a sunken aluminium canoue) and had fun chatting with Mandy.
And as we planned the dinner portion of the evening I felt things change. I could tell that Nik was harboring thoughts of Many (it was kinda obvious) and when I arrived for dinner it quickly degenerated into a kinda double date situation.

I'm not sure if the girls knew this, but as I've been told I'm rather observent.
So as the night wore on and Nik's intrest in Mandy (and was returned) was pretty well established I decided that I would ask Kate out.

My thinking on this was:
She's not going to accept. And that's fine with me, it's just that every now and then a guy has to take a shot at asking out a really awesome girl. And then we'll laugh it off and everything'll be ok.

I guess I couldn't have been more wrong.

We ended up at a bar on Water St. and I professed my interest in her. She (like I thought) was very polite in trying not to harm my feelings. And I told her everything was fine and tried to laugh it off.

And this is where my memory starts to get a little fuzzy. She got flustered and walked away from me...and then proceeded to avoid me for the rest of the night for the most part.

At some point we ended up at another bar and Kate dissapeared for a while and I felt like a third wheel with Nik and Mandy, so i wandered out of the bar and happened upon someone I haven't seen in ages and was glad to run into and we proceeded to talk for a while.

After that it was bar close and I met up with the others (we drove together) and Kate was dropped off. I wanted to talk to her, but could tell that she really didn't want to so I didn't force the matter. Sigh I guess I should have, because I haven't been able to get her to talk to me since.

And then I got back to the Hizouse (for the rest of Nik's story you'll have to ask him it's not my story to tell) and tried for the next couple of days to get a hold of Kate, but trying not to seems annoying or an ass (a fine line to walk). But ended up coming home with the horrible feeling that I had ruined a good friendship...

Now you can see what a total ass I am. Sure you might be thinking that I didn't do anything wrong, but your wrong. I must have. I'm just not sure what it is.

I'm coming back to EC this weekend and hopefully I'll be able to sort things out, but I'm not going to hold my breath.

I just hope that everything turns out all right.

Shit now I'm all depressed and crap.
And there's still more to tell. Because now my life is interesting.

Coming up next time on As the Adventures Turn I'll tell you about my forced family vacation and Adventures at Denny's.

And it'll get less moody. I promise.

-The Pondering Dragon