The Image above is all the letter K is 2 font sizes. yippie...Anyway. I skipped class on Wed. cause I was feeling under the weather. Actually I've been feeling under the weather for over a month now. So I finally went to the doctor (they scare the hell out of me. Mostly 'cause one day I know they are going to tell me I'm dying [But that's a whole nother rant]) and got meds.
Now I no longer wake up hacking my lungs out. Again yippie.
Anyway the story I was telling. I skipped class on wed. cuase I was under the weather and emailed my instructors (cause that's the responsible thing to do [see I can be responsible =]). Their responses came back an hour later (which is weird they arrived all at the same time. Have they nothing better to do than answer my email?) saying pretty much the same thing:
"It's cool. You can do that cause your awesome."
This annoys me. Mostly cause I know it's going to lead me to skipping class and sleeping in more often. But more than that it goes back to the whole I'm paranoid about my work thing.
Back in high school I used to just get by and then excel at the things I was interested in. That way when I excelled it was out of the norm.
The theory goes like this:
If I fly under the radar then when I pop above onto peoples sensors it's surprising and I'm not expected to do it all the time.
Now I no longer have that luxury. I have to go all out all the time, and I'm worried about burning out.
Not to mention the fact that my own personal projects are taking a back seat to school. And that's annoying in it's own right.
But I don't want to lose the respect of the teachers there, cuase if I hold it long enough I'll get some amazing opportunities.
I just wish I didn't have to work so damn hard all the time.
Oh well. It's nothing serious, I'm just complaining to complain I guess.
Bite me, I do so get to complain about things.
Screw you! My mother does not fuck goats... Well ok but not more than that one time =P
Anyway back to the artistic mines to see if I can dredge anything else up.
-The Pondering Dragon
3 comments:
MAN, K is a cool letter! Enough said.
I know what you mean about having to excel... I did pretty well in high school, and while it usually wasn't too hard, there were times when it totally got to me to know that I always had to do well. If I turned things in that weren't up to my usual standards, I got that fun talk after class with teachers. I dunno... it's not exactly the same situation, I guess, but I sympathize with you!
It's tough being amazing. ;)
You know you suck. Quit trying to make yourself feel better.
:P
Since when have I ever tired to make myself feel better? I'm all about destroying my ability to feel better =D
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